I have never been one to be quiet. As a matter of fact almost anyone who has ever met me has at one point or another mentioned to me that I talk too much. I became suddenly very aware of this thought. Any time I was around people I found that I was beginning to censor myself in ways that had never quite occurred to me in the past.
Slowly but surely my fire began to go out. What made me me was ebbing from my life force system and it was starting to show. After many months and possibly years of trying to be someone who I was NOT, it finally hit me;
If I was going to be my authentic self I was going to have to LIVE OUT LOUD.
Staring myself down in the mirror I knew that I was one who was going to speak my truth, express my feelings and share my experiences. I hadn’t come to this planet to shut up and be quiet, or to act like a lady (even though I know that makes my mother cringe) and I didn’t come here to acquiesce to the demands of those who I am not morally or energetically in alignment with simply because they are my family, friend or foe. I wasn’t here to smile and nod absentmindedly at anything, as a matter of fact my face is better suited to brooding and when I do smile I never show teeth. Don’t believe me? Check out any picture of me online and you’ll see what I am talking about.
No, no, I had a mission that was far more important. It was something I had contracted to do long before I ever set foot on this planet in this particular body. It would take me almost forty years to understand what it was but when it finally hit me I felt that tingle of ecstacy which comes when the “aha” moment finally sinks in.
I came here to be me. And love it or hate it, that’s excatly what I intend to do. So welcome to my new blog which will include all my unsoclictied opions, thoughts and concerns about anything and everything but most importantyl about how to deal with toxic people, most specifically a toxic parent.
In the meantime, lift your head up high, let your hair blow in the wind (if you have hair, otherwise let your bald head shine) open your mouth wide and LIVE OUT LOUD. Talk to you soon.
Life’s and adventure. Enjoy Your journey